The juice that makes me sick...

I decided I will do this diet for the six weeks challenge and it will also stop me from binging all spring and probably all summer.
Today I will eat 1000 calories though because my mum made me drink some nasty prune juice which was 360 calories for 16oz. OMG!!! I know it is horrible but it will help clean my system so I am not mad at her. (I know TMI sorry)
To get rid of the nasty after taste I ate half a mandarin orange (25 calories)
So lets do the math here 550+385=935 calories so far.
So dinner, not going to happen. I will munch on some fruit. Watermelon or a few blueberries.YUM!!
I am going to weigh myself tomorrow because my school's gym has a good scale that doesn't lie to me. I promise I will weight myself only once tomorrow.
Also I love reading other people's blogs. This is going to sound dorky but I feel like I am not alone. Yes I have a bestie that feels like I do but she is the only one I know like me. At least blogging I see other lovely girls that know what I am feeling. THANKZ for sharing girls.
Aww I miss surfing. I will start doing that once I lose a bit more weight. I want to be in my 140s before I get even close to a bikini.
I miss the beach though. I love that my front yard is the beach but hate that my fat is stopping me from enjoying it.
People outside this world just don't understand how this can take over and you live with this on your everyday life. While they pig out on hamburgers and fries. I drink my Diet Coke, knowing that it will not be inside me as fat. While others are sitting on their sofa watching skinny people on t.v. I am at the gym trying to be those skinny people they are watching.
I am sorry for the venting but I am sick and tired of people saying your not even fat your not skinny but you are not fat. Okay that does not make me feel any better. That is why when I got home I worked out for three hours straight and skipped dinner. That is why I wear clothes that show nothing. That is why I sleep instead of eat.

We are all human and we all judge, even though we don't want to. I just wish people didn't judge me so harshly. I wish people understand why I am the way I am. I wish people stop saying I am "not that fat yet not skinny". Sometimes words can cut a lot deeper than a knife. and that scare is harder to fade and go away.
I wish everyone happiness and lots lots of luv.and I hope you will understand how I feel.
Much Luv and Stay Beautiful